Monday, February 1, 2010

Searching for Mister Right

I has been one year since I had my first boy friend, at the shocking age of 21, and even more shocking I got my first kiss last valentines day. Well we broke up four months later, but I learned a lot about what I am not looking for in a guy. I don't want a guy to date me just because he hopes it will make him happy, a guy who drinks to make his heartache go away, and gambles his money away. But the most important thing I learned is that I want a Godly man, a man that wants to grow closer to God together. The second boy friend lasted for four months as well. He was a great guy and I am not really sure what I learned from him, probably that I shouldn't date someone that is a devote duck fan. My family gave me such crap for dating a duck. Well we broke up last October so I have been on the search again for about three months, and I have gone out with some strange guys. One guy didn't even know what Twilight was, the other tried to kiss me 4 times after i said no ( I should of slapped him), and another was annoying. Sometimes I feel so hopeless, that maybe Mister Right isn't out there. I want to have faith in God that he will bring me the man I desire so much, but somedays I have a very hard time. I have a vision of the perfect guy, a Godly Man that loves Jesus, is taller than me, is a wise spender, believes the bible is true, desires to grow spiritually together, is a hard worker, educated ( doesn't have to have a college education), wants to have adventures in life, is happy with his life, is waiting till marriage to have sex ( even if he has already had sex), desires to make a difference in the world, and is caring/compassionate, oh and is tall, has dark brown hair, and blue eye :). Of course these are all things I would like, but in reality are these things that I need. I pray that God will send me this amazing Godly man to me. And if you are wondering, yes I am on dating site, it seems to be the only way to meets guy. But the problem is that the ones that seem great for me, it is hard to find the opportunity to talk to them, and the ones that I don't want to talk to wont leave me alone. Ugh sometimes I get so frustrated, I mean come on how hard is it to find a Goldy man.



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